My experience of culture shock in the United States is about homesickness. Because the way I see people is different from me, from the environment culture, language, and different nationalities. It describes me as having trouble concentrating, loneliness, being misunderstood, and being uncomfortable communicating with other people.
When I am with a group of other students in class or in public crowded places, I feel like an outcast. I just go to the side and not talk and just listen to the topic they're talking about. People make fun of me and ask me questions ".Why are you being so quiet?", "Why are you not talking that much?". " You should talk more". It is not because I don't want to talk, it is just a feeling of anxiety inside of me that people wouldn't understand. I am afraid of what they are thinking about in their thoughts of me.
But I found a way to overcome my anxiety by listening to music and dressing in nice clothes. This gave me the motivation to tell myself that I needed to communicate with people more, pushing myself to be more confident. I am still struggling to make friends, but I'm slowly improving myself more than before, accepting that it is okay to be alone and learning to adjust. This shows me that I am strong enough to take on challenges myself.
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